Kneading You by Simone Belarose

Author:Simone Belarose [Belarose, Simone]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2019-09-22T16:00:00+00:00

13

Claire

I practically floated back to the table and picked up a pumpkin scone to snack on while I went over to Thomas’ couch. Everything smelled like him, and it made me giddy with excitement and the faintest thrill of fear for how much I liked it.

I was far from a heart-breaker. I didn’t have guys pounding down my door to date me every single day, but it wasn’t as if I had to try very hard if I was interested. Unfortunately, I was always interested in the wrong guys.

It wasn’t the bad boys and rule breakers that I went after like Jemma, it was the boring sticklers and pencil pushers that I sought. I curled my legs beneath me and gathered the blanket we shared last night around me, huddling in my warmth.

Basking in his scent.

If I was being honest with myself - and really, every girl should be now and again even if it hurt, perhaps especially then - I went after them because it was easy. I thought I wanted boring, stable, dependable, but what I wanted was a man who I could see as a partner.

Every guy I dated was either pushy and thought he knew everything and I should just follow in his steps, or was such a pushover that whenever I suggested anything the answer was always, “yes.”

There was no spark. No passion.

In either case, we never butted heads over a dilemma or worked together to solve something. Each relationship was imbalanced and eventually, that was the reason things ended.

Maybe it was the consultant in me, but I hated going out to a bar and waiting for a guy to hit on me. Filtering out the drunks, potential dirtbags, and those looking just to add another notch to their bedpost was tiring. And my job was tiring enough as it was.

I much rather preferred to vet a guy before we got to that stage. Either as friends or coworkers, though the latter never worked out and I permanently swore off it. Except…now that I thought about it, weren’t Thomas and I coworkers now? A coworker who was also my friend, that was a rarity.

You’re a bit more than friends now, aren’t you?

It took me years to realize what I wanted was Thomas, not the boy I knew in high school - though I think I would have been quite content with him - but the man I knew now. If I made a mistake or was wrong, I could count on Thomas to tell me.

He wouldn’t agree with my every whim either, not like he used to. We’d have arguments, disagreements and in the end, both have a better understanding of each other and the situation.

Not to mention the hot, steamy make-up sex we’d have.

I never had it before, never wanted it, never had a relationship with enough passion that made it even a possibility.

I found myself wanting a whole list of things I never thought I’d want before. Before I got too far into

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